WANNABES
"Wannabes" are scenes that originally were written for "Sucker" but were deleted or rewritten along the way, shown here in their original form.
Since
these scenes are not part of "Sucker" and were in fact deliberately removed from
"Sucker," please do not take any of the plot points or expressed opinions as
actual "Sucker" canon. Whatever the guys say or think here in these scenes
is irrelevant to the overall "Sucker" plot.
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nor does the author mean to suggest that these people act this way in real life.
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12.) AJ, Justin ("Sucker" 74)
Justin promises to love, honor, and obey.
Tired of watching Justin hold the sandwich without eating it, AJ took it from his hand, setting it aside. “Is there anything you want to eat, or would you rather sulk?”
“AJ?” Justin asked. “I love you, and-”
“No, you don’t.”
“I love you,” Justin insisted, “and I respect you-”
AJ snorted.
“-and I promise that I always will. I’m giving myself to you and pledging myself to you and promising to love, honor, and obey. I live for you, like I live for Kevin.” Moving painfully, Justin rolled from the bed, standing, nude. “This is a sign, so that I’ll always remember.”
“Good for you,” AJ said. “Lay back down.” Rising, he lifted the tray in one hand. “I’ll try to bring back something more to Your Majesty’s tastes.”
“You… Why?” Painfully confused, Justin finally met his gaze.
“You’re mine.” AJ smiled. “Don’t give me shit and I can be pretty good to what belongs to me.”
The sandwich had failed; Justin inhaled the microwave pizza. The problem hadn’t been the food itself, but where Justin’s mind was focused. All AJ had to do was change the subject to something more likely to ease Justin’s thoughts: Dan.
Lounging there on the bed, Justin told him all about Dan. Getting to know Dan. First impressions, second, third, tenth. Going to New York with Dan. Seeing the penthouse through Dan’s eyes.
The spa. The rooftop. The hot tub. Justin’s voice grew hushed; his fingers stroked the back of AJ’s hand.
“I never looked at a guy and wanted to kiss him before.” Justin’s cheeks reddened. “I mean, there’s Kevin, but… And now there’s you, and - - but that all happened after Dan.”
AJ’s mind shifted gears quickly. Kevin had stormed Justin’s life and changed everything, but Kevin had been the exception. Maybe Dan was the transition. Kevin had taught Justin to want Kevin. Had Dan helped Justin to want men?
“I remember sitting there, on the sofa, after we came back from the spa. We’d been together all day, and he looked really relaxed, and I envied him, a little bit. And I noticed how smooth his skin was, and how it almost looked like it was glowing, and… His hair’s so dark, and they’d trimmed his sideburns, and I wanted to touch his face, touch his beard…” Justin licked his lips.
“You wanted him.” Justin tried to deny it, most of the time, but it was always there.
“There were…so many times…” Justin’s eyes closed; his voice thickened with desire. “So many times I wanted to touch him. So many times I wondered… What would it be like…” Breath shuddered faintly from softly parted lips. “I wanted to feel him. I wanted to taste him.”
Danny. Mmm. AJ smiled, remembering. “He feels like innocence. He tastes like power.”
Justin’s eyes opened, focusing directly on AJ. “How did it feel? When you kissed him?”
“You’ve kissed him.”
“That didn’t count,” Justin said impatiently. “He never kissed me back. He never wanted me. It was like kissing Chris.” His voice regained its desire as heat flashed in his eyes. “I want to know what it’s like when Dan kisses back. When he moves against you. When you touch him and he moans.”
AJ couldn’t help but smile. Justin was hot for the white knight. “I don’t think the way he kissed me is the way he’ll kiss you. The intensity between us is different. He wants two things, to bring me down, and to lift you up. It’ll probably be slower with you. More sensual. He’ll want to make you feel good. Lots of foreplay.” A different kind of passion.
“What does he look like when he comes?” Justin asked. “What does he sound like? What did it feel like when you were naked against him and he wanted you?”
Tilting his head to one side, AJ
asked, “Are you sure that you’re supposed to express this much interest in a guy
who’s not Kevin?”
A quick flare of temper. “I just sucked Nick’s dick for Kevin,” Justin said. “I can express anything I want.”
Interesting. “That’s fair.”
Glaring at him, Justin blushed red.
He’d follow up on that later. Or was that why Justin was finally expressing direct, consistent sexual interest in Dan? Had being confronted with sex he didn’t want pushed him to pursue what he did want?